2nd Week

Hi from Pangkal Pinang, everyone!

 

I just finished my second week working in here and first week joined in the second team as auditor of big goverment-owned mining company in this island. and one word that could describe my feeling as their VE is WONDERFUL!

 

I am writing this post actually on Monday morning, still have not take a bath because I just arrived from my overhour work in Sunday. The point is I don't get any hard feeling to work with them in Sunday because the team itself was really comfortable to work with. I really enjoy going out and help them. All of them is just like my own friends (just after two days met). After all, the-very-fast-adaptation of me was really dedicated from my very kind senior associate, assistant manager, my senior manager, and last but not least my partner: second associate of this team. They are really funny, friendly, kind, and generous.

 

I am so happy, they are really care of me. They let me to EAT any food available there and pick my own choice of snack and drinks, even after that they will make fun of me because I eat like a fat-pig (I don't know why my appetite getting bigger after join their team, from the previous one, I just so normal and eat like a princess :p). Just then, They teased me because I told them that I have a special friend in Japan and they didn't believe me, until check my handphone, teasing me like a baby. But....... I enjoyed it anyway because that's the way to get closer in short time, even you can value it as ineffective thing of client's fund but that's valuable to strengthen our work team.

 

I also learned many lesson of audit, communication, negotiation. etc. And I am still searching about my theme of internship report because so many task that I have already done but it just, hmm, not a big part if you want to jot them down in your final paper. Just, please, stay pray for my graduation in this year. I really want to set this internship session as serious one because it holds my future. the report ended and I want to sleep asap because this morning I will start my day with meeting with client in this island.

 

ciao!

1st week

Hey. I will post quick update about my intern life.

I was recruited to intern in one of big four of auditing firm and got oil and mining industries as our team client. my first client is a big multinational oil company which headquartered in main capital. Luckily, my first ever team was really great, they were so nice and gave me many advice related my final task for graduate. So, yes, I am so excited with my second team soon. I will meet my new team tomorrow and next week I will move to Bangka Belitung island to work at client's company (you can guess what company I get).

I can't wait!

Training start and end so soon.

Saturday. Thank god you make this day exist between seven days in a week. I found that I will get pleasure and me time only in this day, wherever I am, I will make my Saturday going productively and enjoyable. However, two days ago I joined my first ever training in my internship company (guess-where-it-is-like-everyone-should-has-already-known) and it's finished, wrapped up, with my head still have no idea what am I get from this latest day? But, truthfully, the latest trainer was mentored us like a speedy hell without any space in her/his words. And I bet from my observation with the trainees, most of them couldn't understand the whole program that had been taught. no blame and no offense. Those are just bold the remark that my time is reach its end, the day after tomorrow we will gather up in the office and meet our team manager and directly work soon with all of the stuff.

while I am still confused with my thesis topic, and my professor asked me to call him in Monday. I have to be strong enough  to face the wonderful Monday (6/1), later.

Cheers!

I already rent a room near my office with my friend. So in a mean time, I will move to Kuningan city. 

See what's life I will get on later :)

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Hey. It's kinda tough lately, I have so much thought talking each other in my mind and it's a little crazy, I meant, I am crazy because stressful mind! You never know the only cure of this disease is motivation. Yes, motivation is enough to relieve your stress. Friend(s) in this case, help a lot! With their perspectives and thoughtful mind, information and sweet support could encourage you and boost your mood. I never knew that, finally, I really think I am so weak.

Even I had a conclusion that when I pay a visit to bookstore, please keep in your mind to find a good motivation book that could help me get out from this stressful minded. Yes, I am so pathetic lately. And finding some of my friends have been graduated, really really adding so much hurt but at the same time, striking me to do more faster and motivate me to more focus in my goal this year.

Uh, yeah. I have to go. Tomorrow is my first day being an intern. Wish me a tons of luck, guys!

P.S: Thank you so much for YOU, yes you whom care a lot and really like my writings until willing to visit my blog and read all of my writings. Thank you and don't forget to leave me a comment if you want to. Finding a way to keep maintain with you guys. I will write a lot from now on since many of you asked for it. Happy holiday and keep fighting!

Happy New Year 2014!

Tidak ada kata-kata yang tepat untuk menjelaskan betapa bersyukurnya gue atas kelimpahan rezeki, kesempatan, pengalaman dan pelajaran di tahun 2013 selain Alhamdulillah dan Terima Kasih. Benar-benar merupakan tahun terbaik dalam hidup gue. Di penghujung tahun, ternyata keluarga gue harus melewati masa-masa pergantian tahun dengan sedikit musibah: adik bungsu masuk rumah sakit karena gejala tipes dan mama harus sakit karena kecapaian dan salah makan. Jadilah malam tahun baru gue lewati sendirian di rumah dan sudah di atas kasur dari jam sepuluh malam. Bunyi terompet dan letupan kembang api di atas atap rumah menambah kegalauan dan kekesalan hati (masih terus mikirin skripsian dan magang yang nggak jelas kesimpulannya gimana). Jam 00.00 nggak sengaja kebangun karena suara gaduh luar biasa dari ratusan bunyi kembang api dan gue kaget (sekarang) apa yang gue lakukan pas bangun liat jam di screen handphone waktu itu: berdoa baca Al-Fatihah! (mungkin tekanan skripsi dan magang amat sangat luar biasa sampai mendorong sisi reliji gue jadi naik) dan kemudian kembali tidur.

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Pagi harinya gue ada janji sama salah satu teman yang kebetulan juga magang dan skripsi, sama-sama keterima di perusahaan yang sama dalam periode yang sama, buat cari kosan bareng. Keliling daerah Kuningan selama empat jam, akhirnya kita nemuin kosan dengan harga "masuk akal", bersih, dan fasilitas lengkap. Walaupun nggak sebagus kosan yang deket kampus UI dan harga yang sangat mahal, semoga pengorbanan gue ini bisa membantu sedikit buat nambah motivasi menyelesaikan skripsi plus meningkatkan performa gue pas magang. Biar kena dua-duanya gitu, amin (bisa apa nggak ya?)

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Apapun resolusi yang gue canangkan untuk tahun 2014, I do really really hope that I could be graduated in July 2014 whether with thesis or internship report. I do not care but I hope I could, at least, give my contribution to my university and my country with my last result as student.

Apapun yang akan gue lakukan setelah itu, gue janji gue akan menyempatkan waktu untuk mengunjungi Jepang atau Thailand/ Vietnam sebelum memulai jenjang karir, entah itu sebagai karyawan swasta di perusahaan konsultan, bank multinasional, perusahaan minyak asing atau pegawai negeri sipil di kementrian atau bank negara. Gue akan berusaha sekeras yang gue punya untuk membuat dan memilih jalan yang terbaik, biar kedepan gue nggak akan menyesal saat melihat kebelakang.

Apapun nanti, dan apapun itu, gue akan berusaha menjadi pribadi yang lebih baik. Yang terus berusaha belajar di setiap waktu dan detik gue lalui, entah melalui buku, kejadian, teman-teman, ataupun lingkungan. Apapun itu, gue pengen di penghujung tahun depan, gue bisa memiliki tabungan yang cukup untuk memulai hidup mandiri dan bisa kasih sedikit kebahagiaan ke keluarga, ke Papa dan Mama.

Apapun itu, pendidikan nggak akan berhenti sampai di sini aja. Gue yakin, tahun depan walaupun banyak yang harus gue lakukan, gue akan berusaha untuk menyicil keperluan serta dokumen biar bisa lanjutin studi gue ke tempat yang gue cita-citakan dari dulu, London.

Apapun itu, selalu ingat Allah dan lakukan Shalat lima waktu. Apapun itu. Karena sekeras apapun usaha dan niat, kalau yang diatas tidak memberikan ridhonya, Kun Fayakun, semuanya akan menghilang dan sia-sia. Jadi..... mari berusaha!!

Let's start our 365 pages in 2014 with full of happiness, joy and achievements! Bismillah!

Conclusion: I am gonna marry. In the future.

No. I am not kidding.

This year had taught me many things and I had learn how real life it is.

I do not want to be so naive and closed my eyes to the reality, that I am also a human and I need someone who cares me, a lot. Even more that my family and my friends. I want to have a future, I want to share my moments with people that I really care with.

In every aspects and sides that I want to criticize, I couldn't find any bad things in marriage and couples, besides some of them would face crazy moments sometimes because misunderstanding and lack of communication. But the rest, they have many joyful moments and live your life alone will not have so much fun if you compared it with moments of many people that shared those things, together.

And, wearing those beautiful gown, dress, seeing your groom besides you and kissed each other making a promise to live together until death comes in front of prelate and our parents, that so sweet. and having a baby? ha-ha.... I know it will be hurts so much and will disturb your path and your career but I can't lie babies is the most cutest things ever in this world followed by kittens and puppies.

I am just could not find any reasons to deny my destiny to be a bride in the future. I also feel that it will be such a hell if I just live by myself for many years, it will so horrible. I, probably, will be a crazy single woman whom need many love and thirsty of guy. So dirty.

And it just so wrong in my religion perspectives.

Hah.... what should I say. I have to more be realistic person and try to, yah, find him.

 yes, I can not believe what I typed here.

Merry Christmas and Keep Calm for Thesis!

Final exam finished. Final paper finished. Organization will be finished in one month (yup, even there's still many responsibility that we have to finish). And the best part is holiday is in my hand.

I am already in holiday mode for five days, while trying to fill up this rest time with a little part-time in my campus, being a watchdog while the rest of students still have subject in their final exams. So, despite that I am already in holiday, I am still going and back to my campus, routinely. You know, it's such a relief that in fact, I am running from the reality that there's a big thing that I have to solve: THESIS.

Yes. Thesis. this one word already haunted me for a month, in my dream and in every thought that I had while I am not thinking any busy things. How come I become such a coward person like this? I have a very big plan and idea about how my thesis would be and who will be my professor, but when it comes, I just can't work it, when it hits its time, I am just delay it like forever. And I am afraid that I could not make it for next semester. I am so scared......

that the fact is I already signed my contract to be an intern with the most busiest auditor firm in this country, and I know that I will have less time to spend my time to focus in writing thesis. I should just say to myself that I could do this but I do not know why.......... I always think I can not do this and change my mind about writing this thesis.

But this thesis is one of things that could help me to gain many things in my next year plan. I have to bear with THIS THING for this semester. Whatever reasons that could come, I can handle this! For the sake of my career and my success in the future. Oh my god, please hold on your self, you can not just give up like this!!

(to be honest, today I supposed to call my professor because I promised to him to discuss about my new topic in phone but I am just can not. I think I have to be more prepare, so I will postpone it for couple of days, and will call him in January. I want to make my self more comfortable and ready with these things. I have to prepare, I have to ready. I have to have no weakness and strong when speaking with him, so he could think that I am ready with these things. And then he will allowed me to use this topic and do this things, confident with it. yes.)

I need a little time to prepare. my heart and my mind. my will and build my motivation.

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So, a day after Christmas and couple of days before new year eve. I do not know what kind of plan I have in that eve, but I hope it will be fun and full of meanings. While I am running from the reality that I have to write my thesis, I am thinking about my plan next year. Considering that next year is very important year for me, many tough decisions that I have to make. Very very important year. 2014, so dangerous.

I know that fact. But two days already wasted for watching korea drama: Reply 1994. You can tell how stupid I am. Yes.. you don't have to tell me, I already knew.

But I want to fix it. I want to write my plan. Just hoping for I can execute them.

at the end, no matter how rough our path, believe that we can make it to the end. Just do not give up and keep think optimist! because God never give you a problem that way bigger than your capability, God knows it and you just have to bear it, and believe it. So, Merry Christmas everyone whom celebrate it! And can not wait to New Year post!

Ho, Ho, Ho! Fellas, May the miracle of Christmas  fill your heart with warmth and love. Christmas is the time of giving and sharing. It is the time of loving and forgiving. Here’s wishing you all the joys of the season.
Merry Christmas to Everyone!

December!

Okay, I will make it short since I already wasted my time because do not how to make a good essay for my final paper, and now already the time to make it into real essay (but still escape from that and write in my blog).

I would like very thank you for my self *respect your own self, it's important* and of course my parents because of their blessings and support could make me through all of these obstacles. I just had a very wonderful year in my life!

I was turning into 20 this year, with received so much love and prays from my family and friends. and I also have ended my last year in bachelor study this year (and I hope I could get straight A's for the result). And the most achievement is that I can participate in international conference and nailed international competition not so long ago (yeah!!) those already written in my bucket list and I fulfilled it with many efforts.

I also (finally) stepped my feet in SOUTH KOREA! backpacking with my best friends, experienced the country and do extraordinary things while in there. Also I experienced my first flight this year to Singapore and Malaysia (for free) and attended many international exhibition. I do not know but my Japanese friends this year add so much and I hope it is the signal for me that my dream to go to Japan more closer by the end of this year.

Like a couple days again I will end this wonderful year and start my new journey in 2014, I want to utilize it properly. I want to plan my next year so carefully so I won't disappointed when the year has been passed.

and just for a sneak peek, what I want to achieve and through in 2014:

1) Direct hiring from my internship company
2) Finish my thesis in May 2014 with unique topic and strong defence
3) Graduated in July 2014
4) Visit Japan in August 2014
5) ASEAN bacpacking (solo or trio) in October 2014
6) Working and working~
7) November 2014 start my own business
8) Got a scholarship invitation at the end of 2014


can I do all of that? I HOPE I COULD!! SO MUCH NERVES AND I WANT TO SLEEP JUST THINKING OF THEM. many things to do and just have a little time, oh no.

God please be with me :')

Plastic Surgery for cosmetic reason? come on, get a life!

Today I should finish my thesis proposal writing but in the half way, I was disturbing in some pics on kpsurgery.co that so many people go to surgeon asked to have some works onto their faces, their beauty faces. and I am just like "holy shit what's happened with their mind?!"

since plastic surgery in South Korea already like a trend and South Korea itself claimed their beautician is the best nowadays in the world, even the government made a special route for tourist whom visit Korea to get a plastic surgery in Korean Culture Tourism site. And it is awesome yet crazy because they make it so wrong.

I believe everyone has their own natural beauty. Some people do not have because they was born with weakness like harelip or after accident in their face. Those people DO need plastic surgery so they could live like normal people or get back their old face. but some people who are not grateful for what God already gifted to them and do not want to struggle in natural way to get what they wanted is like unfair.

and I just think.. after you have worked in your face and when you looked at the mirror, your face is not like the one from who are you when you were a little, the face that god gifted to you, the face that looks similar with your mother and father, even those big nose and small eyes, you look pretty and handsome at your own way. you do not have to get those painful for months just to become another person in the mirror.

if you do all of those stuffs for uprising your self-confidence, then you just need your friends, your parents, and yourself to give you support and build your confidence, do not mind people judgment because you are you! they do not have any right to judge a person only from its cover. Because I believe, every person has his/her own beauty, you just could not find it yet, because you have to be patient and when it comes to surface, you will be proud of your patience and effort :)

some pics of people who got plastic surgery for beauty reason

anyway, I think that South Korea women and men only value people for their appearance, is that true? because the trend so happening nowadays in there, even I was like confused whether these women or those guys really beautiful/handsome or just get some works done on theirs when I was in South Korea couples month ago. and it was like funny to think they are beautiful but their kids will get their old face when it was born. I know it leads me to do rude articles, please forgive me. but all I wanted to typed is South Korea people have to judge a person not only from their looks but also their inside, like heart, talents, and smarts. It will so scary if couple years again all of Korean will look all the same (moon half eyes, V chin, high bridge nose, straight eyebrow, and etc) and guys will find natural beauty is all they wanted. before it's too late, you have to think hundreds time to get some works on your face ya! ;')

ps: I am praying for Koreans and a lot of people who get worked on their face. today and couple years from now you are pretty but you do not know what will happen ten years from now with your face since human could not make similar things like God had created. There must be side effect from plastic surgery, and I hope you guys will be OK. But one sentence is enough to explained that plastic surgery for beauty reasons is only waste your money, since GENES WON'T LIE :)

that's that.

Change: Healthy lifestyle

It will be long article if I wrote the reason of my changes in details, so I leave it and just want to tell you guys the part of fun of this changing in my life!

I have some changes in my routine activity. back then, exercising and running are just words that never would I did but now, at least in a week I will do running and yoga to make my body more fit and healthy. I also change my eat habit. I already do not eat rice for my breakfast and just eat a spoon of rice in my lunch. I change my rice with another carbohydrate such as wheat bread or smashed potatoes and eat bunch of vegetables of fruits. I also add volume water those goes in my body each day like minimal I will drink 2 liters water, because I have tight schedule and activities in campus. Plus climate in Jakarta (hot) demanding me to do that more.

I am not seeking my weight will decrease with all of those stuff but my goal is to be more healthy. I am just feel my body is much more easy to move and I have more focus in class even I think I need more adaptation for all of those stuff since much of changes I applied, like no rice and exercising in same time.

the fun things despite of decreasing my plate portion is YOGA! I do love yoga even I am willing to spend like hundred thousands rupiah to but the mattress, that showing my self of my commitment in doing yoga. Now I am planning to join Yoga community around my home so I could do yoga more and networking at the same time.

In yoga itself, I find myself hard to do it since my body categorized as stiff and inflexible. but I am very proud after done around 4 times yoga, I could do sun salutations and dog pose easily, and now I am addicted with yoga!! I will practise it every morning before go to campus.

my family also support my new habit, since mom has to maintain dad's food free from fat and excessive sugar, now we have orange juices, oat crackers, low fat milk, soya less sugar milk, spinach, apples, wheat bread, salmon in our fridge and menu list everyday. Yummy and of course, more healthy!

I will come back for the details, see you!

I could do this position like for 3 minutes, since it is so comfortable

another one

Hi, World.

Life is getting hard on me, again. And you know the reason why I am writing here tonight, since no one willing to hear my problem as much you.

It’s just simple hesitation in me nowadays, that I found hard to find a friend to accompany me to do anything since my sister left me going to reach her dream to be a doctor. Like the condition I have now made me think "am I should find a boyfriend so I do not have pleased each of my BFF to accompany me where I want to have someone walk with me?” yes. I have though in that way, and that’s a disaster.

But, I do not want to have one at this time.

And I chose rather to walk alone or if I were lucky, some of my friend willing to go with me. Ah, what-a-life. But thinking of this way, it seems scary if later when I am getting older and all of my friends are busy with their family, who will I call to accompany me but husband or boyfriend? Even my sisters and mom will have their own things.

Should I buy cat or dog when I am getting older? I know they will help me get warm hugs and kisses. Nice!

Happy Eid Al-Adha 1434 H, everyone!

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On Eid, wish that Allah graces with a shower of happiness, love and divine blessings.