Just to keep me posting one each month. I am alive.

I think I am now getting used to as corporate finance. Well, it is not what I imagine before in the future. But as I am taking this chance as exercise for me to manage my own corporation, I take every lesson I learned each day into my mind. Like the interaction with colleagues, meeting and negotiate with my supervisor, and keep my professional manner on top of everything.

I am not a person that really like stock price, market, and risk that lied on your portfolio, I am not that kind of person. That sticky image well not really attach to my mind even one sec. Even after I knew some of my friends that work in financial industry live with wealthy and high-class standard living, imagining me in that kind of situation is not appealing me.

Evaluate what I have done so far, I am still seeking my true passion day by day. I am still questioning my daily activities as corporate finance as my future. But still wondering if I could be someone useful for my country/society if I keep in this position and company? (or am I being too naive?) that is just what in my mind honestly everyday. Truely a visioner? LOL.

Tomorrow is my birthday anw.

I wish I could achieve all of my goals for this year and be useful and more great person day by day. I hope I could travel the world before I die. and I hope I could continue my study to master as soon as possible, wherever the country is. And I hope I could always make my parents proud of me.

HBD to me in advance! Yey 21yrs old already!


I am a woman.

OI think I reach my point where whenever I pass by, everyone will get my charm (?). I mean, I am quiet attractive lately. Yes a little narcissist but that is real! I am enjoy this current situation, while I am trying to open myself and trying to see possibilities where I can find someone who match with my egoistic self.

In the past, I see people in relationship is stupid human who got fooled by something called love, the human made phrasw which could make everything is right, eventhough it should not be called right. Nothing changes a lot in the present for me. I am still looking a relationship a terrible way to call off, but human nature still inside me. I am lurking for attention or care by someone lately. So I thought I was crazy, lack of activities, etc. I am deny it.

Time is ticking. But I wont make my self under pressure bcs of it since I want to enjoy my freedom and my time. I am still waiting and searching the one that really could fulfill my desire of what a partner of life is. Not only temporary lover or lust filled but the one whom could be my partner, my friend, lover, and listener for my entire life.

Let me being an or called as naive. I am a woman.