31.5.11

Rest-in-memory One year college life in FEUI o:)

Well, the title has explained briefly that I have became a second-year-student in FEUI! Wow, time has gone sooooo fast! Two days ago, we-FEUI 2010- made a remembered tweets in twitter about memories in FEUI. I could not post my memories in there, because it will too much to explain in people's timeline. So, lemme sharing my experience here :) and I will explain those in Indonesian.
here we go... *brainstorming*

1. Pertama kali saat keterima di universitas Indonesia. Senyuman bangga seorang papa yang terukir di wajahnya, tangisan haru Ibunda karena nama anaknya ada di tulisan koran pagi waktu itu. Masih terngiang sesegukan haru tangis Ibunda :') hiruk pikuk keceriaan keluarga, anak sulungnya keterima di universitas hip di Indonesia. Mulasnya sakit perut saat liat pengumuman resmi di Internet, takut koran salah cetak, dan sujud syukur ternyata benar memang keterima di jurusan terkemuka di universitas Indonesia. Alhamdulillah.

2. Naik kereta AC Ekonomi dengan bahagia berbekal tiket tebet-depok bersama Ibunda, melihat tempat persinggahan yang mana yang bisa membawa suasana belajar yang kondusif buat anaknya. Turun di stasiun dengan bangga, jalan kaki menyusuri hutan depok, jalan ke dalam fakultas dengan rasa deg-degan, jalan kaki dari stasiun sampai ke kukusan teknik bersama Ibunda dengan semangat.. kenangan yang tak terlupakan. Kosan kartini yang murah tapi jelek, kosan enha yang penuh, alamanda yang waiting listnya kepanjangan, pokus yang wc-nya satu berdua, kosan tanpa nama yang dekat masjid, jalan sampai arah tulip tapi menyerah, dan akhirnya Ibunda tiba-tiba memilih kosan Pinky yang biasa saja dan langsung dp seketika, yang nantinya membawaku berkenalan dengan orang-orang baik di sini :') Subhanallah

3. Kenangan masa-masa OPK, Subhanallah, mengharukan :') apalagi kenangan bermain bersama mereka, selain mati-matian dalam perjuangan mengerjakan tugasnya. Kebersamaan yang mengikat kami, bikin kenal dan saling dekat walau terpaksa haha tapi dipikir-pikir jadi kangen juga. Masa-masa bareng mereka, denger becandaan dan jayusan yang sama setiap hari dari mereka. 12 orang yang bikin kangen :")

4. Perkenalan dengan sahabat-sahabatku dari kosan. yang satu dikenalin teman sesma, yang satu lagi teman satu kelas yang gue becandain dan katain, ternyata pas pulang ke kosan dia ada di kamar bawah-sedang buang sampah- :') mereka ikut gabung belajar bareng setiap mau ujian tengah semester atau akhir semester. curhat colongan di tengah kesibukan memasukkan berpuluh ribu kata ke dalam otak di satu malam. membeli makanan yang sama setiap dini hari bertiga.. kangen masa-masa itu. kangen perjuangan bertiganya :')

5. sibuk kepanitiaan, bertemu dengan orang-orang baru di kepantiaan. Economix, JGTC, KOMPeK, EPC, SRD, dan DocDays. menjadi anggota keluarga dari BOECONOMICA :') sungguh hal yang luar biasaaa ya Allah

6. Belajar dengan orang-orang hebat setiap harinya di kelas maupun di luar kelas. Banyaknya seminar yang di gelar, acara kepanitiaan yang bagi-bagi makanan gratisan, dan kegiaan pinjam-kembalikan buku di perpustakaan sungguh mengagumkan

7. stress karena padatnya kegiatan, satu per satu rambut rontok dan menyumbat kamar mandi setiap dua hari sekali. setiap hari menyapu kamar segenggam rambut terkumpul. pusing kepala yang menyerang setiap malam, kopi pengganti air putih sebagai doping agar mata mau bekerja sama dalam membantu mengerjakan tugas yang diberikan semua dosen.. tapi itulah seninya berkuliah.

8. nonton DVD bareng setelah ujian, pergi belanja di mall belakang, pulang pergi dengan bikun gratisan, naik abang tukang ojek, tiap hati ngelaundry ke rafino's, tiap jam makan pusing mikirin mau makan pakai apa dan mager yang sangat amat besar untuk pergi turun keluar kosan :')

9. Dalam seketika di kosan bisa mempunyai hamster, kelinci, dan kucing anggora bersama-sama penghuni kosan. Kucing anggora, obat penghilang stress dari tetangga sebelah kamar. Dan tau segala keburukan dan sifat aneh para tetangga kosan haha.

Yup! I think that was enough to tell here, the general place where people around Indonesia can read it. Whatever but I love this memories until I joy to share here. So maybe one day when I am a old lady, I can read this and will not forget this beautiful memories. Alhamdulillah.

Fail

Honestly I don't feel well. I do not know whether it because this problem. I think, I have two best friends in college life. Both are from my boarding house. We knew each other and related from the first mid-term test. It was a beautiful moment when we spent time together and struggled for raised the highest scores, against each other in peace, knowing each other scores and GPA. It was sweet, but I think, I'm too emotional and take it so seriously because this moment. I think, they just consider me as a study-friend, not a true friend. I was thought about that because lately, they have gone.

They are disappeared. woosh, like a wind, if the exams has done. and it gone worse because in this exam, they really do not invite me to study group again or just read-together again. Yesterday exam, I really joyed my book(s) alone without sharing thoughts or anything. Little sad, but the things get worse because I have thought that they are my best friend, the clickest one in here :'(

I am broken, I am feel like envy anyone beside both of them. I should play with my-Jakarta-friends like a common used to. but I feeling pretty good shares my common thought and my stories to both of them. but I think they won't do that. They have their own group. You know, they are from high school in village and come hereby friends, they maybe think and feel that unpleasant to became a really friend to stranger here, stranger that they have know just for six months.

I just do not know what to say and do. I love both of them, they are sweet but lately I have gotten hurt because thinking about them. and a couple hours ago, I just know something that should one of them told me, briefly: important thing, from someone else! I have thought that they were considered me as a friend, but because some events and those hurt me, I noted that they just make me as a friend from boarding house which in a past have a chances to study together in a groups.

They took half of my brain-space, it was wasting my time. Became hatred was wasting to much time. I should find somebody else who really cares about me, who really joyed to spare a time to share and laugh and shopping together like best friends always do. maybe I should search someone special, or boyfriend. The lesson is: do not think to much, do not let your self in to much of something that none of your business.

I am tired being a kind person, a care too much person, and a excess-of-smile person. You can hate me now, because I am officially hate my self.

28.5.11

Snipped from the tight time I had to write in this blog via my berry. Many events which I want to tell, wanted to write here but unfortunately I did not have any time or few energy to did it.
People, next Monday I will face my last exam which are accounting and statistical tests. I just try to not sleep this saturday and sunday, prepare very well for gain any information and lesson in the books, prepared for the hardest tests. Closed the second semester happily (amen)

Anyway, I faced many trouble in this term. I lost many best friends, I lost my GPA (I hope it will less than I expected), I loss many of hair in my head, I am stressful. I often anti-social nowadays. Do not know why, initially I just move away from my friends and prefer to not talk with them. That was happen two weeks ago, until yesterday. I have many tasks from my organization. It takes many times of mine. My study have became so mess. I can not explain further. I am in mess now. Just pray non-stop to God. For the better result in SIAK-NG

*honestly I do not want to talk about this topic. It goes wrong suddenly haha.

12.5.11

2nd war of regol in FEUI

You-know-what?
Yesterday at 7.00 pm or should I say, 6.56 shit pm, FEUI 2010 began the second war of virtual world in SIAK-NG a.k.a Regol. I have prepare for this one but because of fucking shit birpend who cheat opened the war 4 minutes earlier without any announcement, WE LOOOOSE!

What should I say? Should I not get short semester? I really mess up. I hate Regol.

1.5.11

Kate Middleton

Duchess of Cambridge

I am still normal and every woman in this world, envy her. Right? No, not to the reason that she can marry her duke, but on her wedding dress and her after party dress. I envy that dress. That silk, fall nicely on her body, the gown and tiara really fits each other. You know, I almost want to get married just because that dress! haha how woman I am.

1st May

Congratulation, body. You have succeded get life until 18 years old. Thanks for your support whenever situoation I got; sad, happy, sickness, anger, and anything feeling I have given for you, body.

Even I hate this day, I should be sorry for all things I have done for you. Even I won't born in this world, the fact is I am here, with you. So, I asking you, body, can we cooperate for a year and after? for my parents sake? I should be someone, someday, with somehow before you can leave me with peace. I robe you, hope we lucky this year.

Happy Birthday to me :)